This week was a difficult one for me. It went by really quickly and ended up with two deaths. (One being my grandpa and the other being one of our little ones.) This was my first time experiencing the death of a pet and I didn’t realize how hard it was. I think what was the…
I Will Follow You Into the Dark
It’s been a hard few days and losing you hasn’t made it any easier. It’s made a lot of things surface and I wish it was gone. Luckily I’ve been learning to surround myself with more positive people, so it’s been a lot better than I thought it would be, but nonetheless, it will always…
The Hammock
My fondest memory of you is when we used to swing in the hammock in your backyard. I used to love coming over to your house and running to the backyard to snuggle up near you and hear you sing. You sang about all of your grandchildren. They were your most prized possession. You would…
True Colors
I have been in love with the Zedd song “True Colors” for over a year now. It’s a strong pop anthem that doesn’t sacrifice originality or substitute for poor vocals. I think Kesha was a great choice to voice this song and again, I absolutely love it! For the past few days, I’ve been attempting…
Getting into Routine
I know I’ve talked about how hard it is to get into routine or schedule for me, but I’m definitely feeling that again. I’ve recently taken back an old job I had to help out that workplace as many people have been leaving. And while it’s not a lot of work (as in I don’t…
Chin Up Chuck
I’ve been having a pretty low week. There’s a number of things that have been falling out of place for me, and I’m clocking the fact that I know that I’m letting my emotions spiral down. It’s easy for me to want to sit in that place, knowing full well how destructive letting myself go…
“Shallow Bitch”
This week I had a conversation with a faceless, completely blank profile that went like this: Him: hey Me: Mind showing me a pic of your face? Him: no hey back? no hru? just want a pic? ur fucking rude. And while I probably should have ended the conversation there, I continued. Me: Sorry, I’m…
“Just Tell Me You’re Not Interested in Me, I’ll Get Over You Someday.”
For those of you who haven’t gotten a chance to see my show Oasis Love, what are you doing? Nah, I kid. There’s a scene in Oasis Love that breaks down my relationship with online dating and explores the neurotic person that I can be. I don’t know where it stems from, or if everyone really goes…
Class is in Session
When I was in elementary my teachers always asked us what we wanted to be when we grew up. I never knew what I wanted to do. I never had a specific path I wanted to follow, and I still feel like I don’t necessarily know what I want to do for the rest of…
I Wish I Could Control My Dreams
I haven’t been sleeping properly for the past four days. I keep waking up to those jolty nightmares, but all the dreams have been about the same thing… certain family members and the shit they keep putting each other through. I’m not close to any of my family members. I tend to keep myself secluded…