All of my life I have felt like a burden. I recognize that I require a lot in order to be okay and I cannot seem to allow others to help me take care of me. This extends to most facets of my life. I avoid asking for help or asking other to modify their…
Today the Voices Won
In shadows they creep, they rise and scream, In chorus, harsh, they permeate my dreams. They whisper lies that cut me whole, Telling me I’m worthless, my sleep takes the toll. Every step I’ve taken is marked as wrong, Their cruel refrain an unforgiving song. I stand alone beneath a sky so gray, Believing all…
Addiction Doesn’t Always Look the Same.
I find it extremely difficult to stop denying that I have problems with addiction. Though my addictive tendencies rarely have to do with drug or alcohol consumption, the impact of said addictions typically has significant repercussions, especially on my mental health. The three most common threads when it comes to addiction for me have to…
Coming to Terms With Being an Introvert
All of my life I feel like I’ve been fed a pseudo-narrative that I must be an extrovert. You love performing! You get along with people so well! You love it when there’s an audience around! You must be an extrovert. Somewhere deep down, I feel like I’ve always known that I was an introvert…
Figuring Out What Abstract Means to Me
In my last post, I discussed how I’ve been discovering new passions of mine, especially with utensils that I’ve never had before, like watercolour pencil crayons. Given recent world circumstances, I’ve been spending more time playing video games like Don’t Starve Together, which has been helping me redefine what I look at as art. I’ve always…
Realizing My Passions Aren’t “Real”
One of the hardest things about growing up for me has been coming to the realization that what I thought I wanted in life was not actually what I needed or even desired. I don’t think I dive into my past enough to claim that I understand where certain patterns and behaviours come from, but…
Taking Long Walks to Welcome the Summer
All of my life I’ve loved going on long walks. It hasn’t really mattered where the long walks take place, although I do love long walks around nature rather than long walks in the city. I don’t know, as much as I love looking at the big city from afar, I don’t seem to get…
It’s Been an Exciting Month & I’m Proud of Myself
This month has been pivotal for me as a person, especially as an artist. While things have been shaky for me as a teacher thanks to Ford Nation, budget cuts and the general stress of job stability, I’ve been striving to make sure that I don’t lose heart and continue to work hard on my…
Sunroom? Check! (Fixing Our Sunroom After Getting Our Windows Redone)
A few months back our building had our windows redone since they were still the original ones from the 70s. I didn’t actually notice anything wrong with the window’s insulation since this is my first winter here, but you could definitely see that time definitely didn’t serve them the best. Although we moved in August, the…
Clear that Stack of Paper
Last year when my parents were moving my mom got ready months in advance. She was so excited to sell the house and get on with the rest of her life and it feels like she disconnected her emotions from the house altogether. I remember being so shocked by how easy it felt for her…