I’ve been trying to get myself to sit down and start writing music again. There wasn’t really a time where I said “well, I’m not going to be working on music anymore” but I do feel like it’s been on the backburner for an awfully long time.
I’m constantly making up excuses for why I need to wait to finish the song that I’m working on. For example, I have been recording and re-recording a studio cover of Pink’s “What About Us”. It’s an amazing song that I would love to perfect, but since I’m on a new software that I don’t own many plug-ins for… well I feel like I can’t properly edit or make a song sound half decent. I’ve been watching tutorials though, but a lot use plug-ins I just don’t have or haven’t given enough time to think about investing in.
I think that’s really weird for me to think about because growing up I didn’t let that be an obstacle. I remember building my first “studio” out of found objects, old karaoke microphones and using the most basic freeware, but I enjoyed it because I loved it.
And then when my sister was done with her macbook, she gave it to me and that’s what really sparked my interest in recording music. I’d record music all the time, and then college happened and I feel like everything ended there.
I tried to get myself to upload weekly videos, but I was getting focused on trying to make money and trying to survive. I lost the drive.
I just remember staying up till 4 in the morning writing songs when I was 13. I miss those days. Not because I can never do them again, or because I missed out on something, but because I don’t think I realized how happy that made me. Even staying up tonight working has made me feel creative again. It’s made me want to record music. Only excuse: no vocals since our neighbours are sleeping and I’m known to sing loudly. So who knows, maybe I can adapt to a night owl schedule which may get me back in the mood to write. I used to love taking walks at night and singing new melodies to myself.
I just want to feel that passion again. I want to write because I love to write, no other reason.
So tonight I clear up everything on my design laptop and see if I can get it working again. That way I can use the old programs I know inside out while still being able to play with the new software for my desktop. Let’s just hope that sucker will turn on!