It’s been a while since I’ve taken a crack at writing lyrics. I know, I’ve talked about that quite a lot recently, and it’s mostly my fault for not doing it. I guess after my YouTube channel kept on plummeting, I felt discouraged and didn’t push myself to sing or write lyrics. (Shoutout to G for always watching my videos, I appreciate that support so much.)
While I like singing covers, there’s nothing that beats writing your own music and performing it. It’s just about questioning why it is I’m writing it. By the time I was about 15 or 16 I had already written about 50+ songs. Most of them didn’t see the light of day, but I did frequently release live versions of them and I hope that I can bring that passion back.
The past few days I’ve been taking some time out of my day to write again and I’m happy to say, I’ve been writing some music I’m really proud of. It’s been a lot of angst you can say. Things that I never worked through put into music, which oftentimes scares me since it’s not the most marketable, but if you go through my favourite musicians you can tell that I’m heavily inspired by pianists who write about “real shit.”
I’m working on trying to tell myself that I don’t need to be thinking about the “marketability” of my music because that was never important. Distant Star’s music was so unfiltered and raw that I question why I am worried about that. Music has always been a passion and for me to let that die because I’m worried no one is going to listen to it is stupid. Take Oasis Love for instance. There’s a bunch of hard-hitting music in there, and it’s popular and people love it, but it’s not the stereotypical bubblegum pop shit that sells. It’s the, “oh yeah, I’ve been there and I can relate” music that I similarly have been drawn to when going through tough times.
I guess there’s too much “bleeding heart” artist in me to want to put that aside and move on to empty lyrics, not that there’s anything wrong with that… trust me, I love my pop bull–, but me writing it isn’t where I’d want to go.
I’m working at learning to edit my music properly since at this time I don’t have a producer who can work with me. I’ve obviously dabbled in music production in the past, but I don’t feel comfortable trying to sell it or posting it on streaming sites until I feel like it’s “the best it can sound.” I have been noticing I’m very picky about my editing, especially because when I hear edits other people do with my voice I’m always shocked with how crisp or clean they sound, even though I’ve been able to do the same it just seems like “they’re better.” Well, I’m going to get better. So this month is being put to learning more about what makes my recorded music sound better and doing it myself. I’m excited and I hope to upload and share the process with you.
I hope it will be soon because there are lots of ideas that have been running through my head and I don’t know if I can wait until I compile a whole album. So maybe some singles first, while the other music writes itself.