My fondest memory of you is when we used to swing in the hammock in your backyard. I used to love coming over to your house and running to the backyard to snuggle up near you and hear you sing. You sang about all of your grandchildren. They were your most prized possession. You would…
Life
Getting into Routine
I know I’ve talked about how hard it is to get into routine or schedule for me, but I’m definitely feeling that again. I’ve recently taken back an old job I had to help out that workplace as many people have been leaving. And while it’s not a lot of work (as in I don’t…
Chin Up Chuck
I’ve been having a pretty low week. There’s a number of things that have been falling out of place for me, and I’m clocking the fact that I know that I’m letting my emotions spiral down. It’s easy for me to want to sit in that place, knowing full well how destructive letting myself go…
“Shallow Bitch”
This week I had a conversation with a faceless, completely blank profile that went like this: Him: hey Me: Mind showing me a pic of your face? Him: no hey back? no hru? just want a pic? ur fucking rude. And while I probably should have ended the conversation there, I continued. Me: Sorry, I’m…
“Just Tell Me You’re Not Interested in Me, I’ll Get Over You Someday.”
For those of you who haven’t gotten a chance to see my show Oasis Love, what are you doing? Nah, I kid. There’s a scene in Oasis Love that breaks down my relationship with online dating and explores the neurotic person that I can be. I don’t know where it stems from, or if everyone really goes…
Class is in Session
When I was in elementary my teachers always asked us what we wanted to be when we grew up. I never knew what I wanted to do. I never had a specific path I wanted to follow, and I still feel like I don’t necessarily know what I want to do for the rest of…
I Wish I Could Control My Dreams
I haven’t been sleeping properly for the past four days. I keep waking up to those jolty nightmares, but all the dreams have been about the same thing… certain family members and the shit they keep putting each other through. I’m not close to any of my family members. I tend to keep myself secluded…
Tomorrow
As most people are… I’m a procrastinator. Although it’s weird, because I don’t procrastinate when things have to do with other people. For example: whenever I’m working on someone else’s show or working with one of my clients I finish my work quickly and efficiently. However, when things have to do with me, for example…
Weight, Weight Go Away… and don’t come back another day.
Recently I hit a new weight goal. Between eating healthy in the UK and being a lot more active during touring I dropped about 10lbs. As much as I hope the weight stays off, I have to keep fighting my want to stop eating altogether. I’ve always had body image issues (as most folks), however,…
Getting into the Groove
I’ve been away from home for about 3-weeks now and I’m finding it difficult to sit down and focus. I’ve been spending a lot of time playing video games with K and every time I sit down to work I just don’t want to anymore. I’m finding it hard to write, even though there are…